I feel disqualified to write, to preach and to teach God’s Word. It is truly something when we are face-to-face with the awful condition of our hearts. I still wake up in the morning with a sense of emptiness; I still feel the darkness of a cloud that oppresses my emotions every day; I still battle in my mind the thoughts that come to steal my peace. It still hurts! I stand in need of God’s mercies everyday and for the first time in my life I have a recognition and awareness in my spirit that without the Lord I don’t have a chance. I am in His hands. Every day that goes by that I don’t entertain sexual immorality I praise Him and give Him glory; for even in my dreams His power is made real in my life. I am not trying, for I did that for a long time and failed miserably; I am surrendering to God in every thought, every emotion, every temptation and every frustration. The Lord is my Sheppard! I come home to my children and I see them grow! God has not abandon us! I see the faces of my friends and I sense there uncompromising love. There is a fountain flowing within me; it is a fountain that quenches my thirst and takes away my hunger. God is with me! I keep moving on in His name. I accept my mistakes! Why in my pride was I so surprised? For I am nothing without the Lord, but in Christ I can do all things!
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